Comments on: Let’s Talk About Drugs http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/ babblings! Thu, 26 Aug 2010 12:06:18 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: Delle Schmalchy http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-7890 Delle Schmalchy Sat, 26 Jun 2010 03:42:16 +0000 /?p=20#comment-7890 Dawn! I do not even know where to begin. You are a light, brilliant and rare in this world. I am beyond thankful for your spirit and drive to use your life to help others. I was once in an abusive relationship with a manipulative man also. I have no idea how I got there. I was raised in a nice home with a wonderful father and a wonderful mother for the very short time she was alive. Yet, somehow as an honors student at a top university I succumbed to a man who was addicted to meth. He made it look amazing, exciting and fun, and I loved him. My desire to please him took over every fiber of my being. I began to do meth and isolated all of my friends and family for two years. Somehow, by the grace of God, I came out of the dark tunnel of addiction. I have not looked at meth for 4.5 years now. Your ten year mark amazes me and I can not wait to celebrate that day. I have a beautiful young daughter and a loving husband now. My husband loves every part of me, even the part of me that was addicted to meth back in that other lifetime. And thanks to you, and the other corageous parents who have posted here, I have started to gather great ideas about how to address this with my children. I never want to lie to them, but I also don't want to give them a reason to feel it is "OK because mom did it." So thank you. Thank you! And keep doing your great work-you are truly, literally an angel. I can't wait to read your book! Dawn!
I do not even know where to begin. You are a light, brilliant and rare in this world. I am beyond thankful for your spirit and drive to use your life to help others. I was once in an abusive relationship with a manipulative man also. I have no idea how I got there. I was raised in a nice home with a wonderful father and a wonderful mother for the very short time she was alive. Yet, somehow as an honors student at a top university I succumbed to a man who was addicted to meth. He made it look amazing, exciting and fun, and I loved him. My desire to please him took over every fiber of my being. I began to do meth and isolated all of my friends and family for two years. Somehow, by the grace of God, I came out of the dark tunnel of addiction. I have not looked at meth for 4.5 years now. Your ten year mark amazes me and I can not wait to celebrate that day. I have a beautiful young daughter and a loving husband now. My husband loves every part of me, even the part of me that was addicted to meth back in that other lifetime. And thanks to you, and the other corageous parents who have posted here, I have started to gather great ideas about how to address this with my children. I never want to lie to them, but I also don’t want to give them a reason to feel it is “OK because mom did it.” So thank you. Thank you! And keep doing your great work-you are truly, literally an angel. I can’t wait to read your book!

]]> By: Gary C http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-3081 Gary C Wed, 26 Nov 2008 04:49:39 +0000 /?p=20#comment-3081 Well, Not sure really where to start here... Not necessarily what my purpose is, except perhaps some advice... I would not consider myself an addict, and not denial there... I am not on anything but what doctors have prescribed... except, well, ok... Modafinil. But a host of other things, mainly Vicodin, though out of that, cymbalta, tapizole, seroquel, Concerta, and blood pressure meds. But anyway... I use them mostly for prescribed use, but... well, i have gone through the vicodin fast... but i taper it off near the end. and I'm ok... ... well, anyway.... I started drinking very young, only on weekends. Would go to disco's then. Had lots of unsafe sex. Started that when I was between 10 or 11. Depends on that fact... there are some repressed issues, with ... and uncle that had myself and my niece, (same age) perform sex acts while he watched. But I dont' count those... Since, well, I don't know the age, nor recall much of what was done. ... Anyway.... Struggled though high school years with Alcohol abuse, but not frequent. I' m a binge drinker, and didn't do it that frequently, or so I thought, only weekends. It led to some bad situations, that I won't go into detail here, since its not the focus of the writing. ( Please forgive me also, if I am not so coherent, I have been awake now for oh, only about....32 hours now. I have sleep disturbance issues, and I am also out of seroquel now, so... I tapered it off for the last 4 days, so should not be too bad. I did take one modafinil at 2 pm Monday so this is not an issue now). Anyway.....Needless to say there is a spotted history for substance abuse, though no cocaine or anything similar. Well anyway, let me get more so to the point...probably not the place for it but, reaching out is a step anyway... Well, at a very bad point right now anyway... My parents are dead, no relatives to turn to, no family for help, and I'm without work, and May not get unemployment. Meds are running out, and no money. I'm already living in a rooming house, that has 12 rooms that pay by the week. Its the cheapest I could find a year ago, and I'm still here.... I drink still, very rarely, because I know, if I do overindulge, I always get suicidal, so I have managed to ob stain for more than a year at a time. I had 2 drinks a couple weeks ago but that was it, but I'm Farly terrified to over do it, but you know once you start, its hard to stop. So I don't start... the problem is Not having anyone to turn to, No money, and well, if I don't get my unemployment, I will be homeless... and I won't let that happen... I could not deal with that.... I should qualify, I been working with only a couple week breaks since mid 2007. But the thing that worries me, is I attempted to apply in April, and got denied then, but this is still considered the same "Benefit Year". and I can not reach them, to try to open a new case. I like some other here, am lost, nearly totally hopeless. I have nothing to fall on. I envy those with families, though I know events can be destructive to that family, but, there is always a Necessity, a reason if you will, Something to go on for. Not to mention, children can sometimes be the best source of unconditional love. But sadly, I have nothing. Nothing at all. No one that would give me shelter if I needed it. I have a good amount of stuff though, in storage, I had a whole house full, that got foreclosed in 2001, Lost the car also.... Faience as well... Been single for many years. Not much desire to try to find relationships, though I try... but that's another story. Well, anyway, Not sure what I'm really asking, other than i know there are many issues... but for someone running out of time.... Oh to add insult to injury, I have Celiac's disease, that pretty decent damage was done before it was diagnosed. Now Graves Disease, and the last tests I had, seemed to indicate probable attack of the connective tissues from the immune system as well. Asthma and some other minor issues. There are really allot of things I would love to discuss, but don't know what good it would do. I also don't mind posting a link to my my space sight, if anyone wants a closer peek to get a better idea about me. Let me know if I should post it or not. Thank You, Gary C. Well, Not sure really where to start here… Not necessarily what my purpose is, except perhaps some advice… I would not consider myself an addict, and not denial there… I am not on anything but what doctors have prescribed… except, well, ok… Modafinil.
But a host of other things, mainly Vicodin, though out of that, cymbalta, tapizole, seroquel, Concerta, and blood pressure meds. But anyway… I use them mostly for prescribed use, but… well, i have gone through the vicodin fast… but i taper it off near the end. and I’m ok… … well, anyway…. I started drinking very young, only on weekends. Would go to disco’s then. Had lots of unsafe sex. Started that when I was between 10 or 11. Depends on that fact… there are some repressed issues, with … and uncle that had myself and my niece, (same age) perform sex acts while he watched. But I dont’ count those… Since, well, I don’t know the age, nor recall much of what was done. … Anyway….
Struggled though high school years with Alcohol abuse, but not frequent. I’ m a binge drinker, and didn’t do it that frequently, or so I thought, only weekends. It led to some bad situations, that I won’t go into detail here, since its not the focus of the writing. ( Please forgive me also, if I am not so coherent, I have been awake now for oh, only about….32 hours now. I have sleep disturbance issues, and I am also out of seroquel now, so… I tapered it off for the last 4 days, so should not be too bad. I did take one modafinil at 2 pm Monday so this is not an issue now). Anyway…..Needless to say there is a spotted history for substance abuse, though no cocaine or anything similar.
Well anyway, let me get more so to the point…probably not the place for it but, reaching out is a step anyway…
Well, at a very bad point right now anyway… My parents are dead, no relatives to turn to, no family for help, and I’m without work, and May not get unemployment. Meds are running out, and no money. I’m already living in a rooming house, that has 12 rooms that pay by the week. Its the cheapest I could find a year ago, and I’m still here….
I drink still, very rarely, because I know, if I do overindulge, I always get suicidal, so I have managed to ob stain for more than a year at a time. I had 2 drinks a couple weeks ago but that was it, but I’m Farly terrified to over do it, but you know once you start, its hard to stop. So I don’t start… the problem is Not having anyone to turn to, No money, and well, if I don’t get my unemployment, I will be homeless… and I won’t let that happen… I could not deal with that…. I should qualify, I been working with only a couple week breaks since mid 2007. But the thing that worries me, is I attempted to apply in April, and got denied then, but this is still considered the same “Benefit Year”. and I can not reach them, to try to open a new case.
I like some other here, am lost, nearly totally hopeless. I have nothing to fall on. I envy those with families, though I know events can be destructive to that family, but, there is always a Necessity, a reason if you will, Something to go on for. Not to mention, children can sometimes be the best source of unconditional love.
But sadly, I have nothing. Nothing at all. No one that would give me shelter if I needed it. I have a good amount of stuff though, in storage, I had a whole house full, that got foreclosed in 2001, Lost the car also…. Faience as well… Been single for many years. Not much desire to try to find relationships, though I try… but that’s another story.

Well, anyway, Not sure what I’m really asking, other than i know there are many issues… but for someone running out of time…. Oh to add insult to injury, I have Celiac’s disease, that pretty decent damage was done before it was diagnosed. Now Graves Disease, and the last tests I had, seemed to indicate probable attack of the connective tissues from the immune system as well. Asthma and some other minor issues.

There are really allot of things I would love to discuss, but don’t know what good it would do. I also don’t mind posting a link to my my space sight, if anyone wants a closer peek to get a better idea about me. Let me know if I should post it or not.

Thank You,

Gary C.

]]> By: Roxy http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-3020 Roxy Sat, 27 Sep 2008 19:24:28 +0000 /?p=20#comment-3020 Hello, I Stumbled Across This Site When I Was Trying To Find Info About Dawns Book And Have Been On And Off For two Days. And i Just Wanted To Say You Are All Right About How Prescription Painkillers Can Be Just As Addicting As Any Other Drug, And A Lot OF Doctors Dont Think Of That When They Give Them to Someone For An Accident,Or Even A Toothache. Dentists Give Vicodon After Oral Surgery! People Often Do Get Addicted And Then Are Cut Off Or Whatever And It Is Very Difficult To Deal With, Especially When You Know That You Can Get The Same Or Something Else To ease Your Pain, But I Do Believe Like The Rest of You Are Saying That Is Better To Live Clean. Its Hard Coming Down But Once Your Clean And Its Behind You It Is Better. I Just Wanted To Comment On That Because A Lot Of People Talk About HArd Drugs And Worry About Thier Children Getting Addicted But Prescription Drugs Are Just As BAd I Think And Im Glad That Some Of You mentioned That. Hello, I Stumbled Across This Site When I Was Trying To Find Info About Dawns Book And Have Been On And Off For two Days. And i Just Wanted To Say You Are All Right About How Prescription Painkillers Can Be Just As Addicting As Any Other Drug, And A Lot OF Doctors Dont Think Of That When They Give Them to Someone For An Accident,Or Even A Toothache. Dentists Give Vicodon After Oral Surgery! People Often Do Get Addicted And Then Are Cut Off Or Whatever And It Is Very Difficult To Deal With, Especially When You Know That You Can Get The Same Or Something Else To ease Your Pain, But I Do Believe Like The Rest of You Are Saying That Is Better To Live Clean. Its Hard Coming Down But Once Your Clean And Its Behind You It Is Better. I Just Wanted To Comment On That Because A Lot Of People Talk About HArd Drugs And Worry About Thier Children Getting Addicted But Prescription Drugs Are Just As BAd I Think And Im Glad That Some Of You mentioned That.

]]> By: Rachel http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-2945 Rachel Wed, 09 Apr 2008 18:10:30 +0000 /?p=20#comment-2945 Dawn, I'm not even sure if you still read and respond to this section. I just stumbled upon the movie Wonderland(it's in my roommates collection). After watching it I decided to indulge the darker side of my curiosity by researching John Holmes, and I ended up discovering this site. You being a woman and once involved in drugs(as I am a woman but currently involved in drugs), I decided to do some research on you. I want to say that I do admire you and the incredible changes you made in your life. I feel like in order to get out of that kind of lifestyle, you have to at some point be able to look at yourself OUTSIDE yourself and see something better. Is that how you were able to get out? I'm not a huge user of cocaine. Once, maybe two times every two weeks(that's my time frame). I can't go beyond two weeks. So I don't use everyday or even every other day. It's not the usage that scares me at this point, but my DESIRE. My question to you is this: What happened or what did you say to yourself, or what were you able to see/feel/wonder that allowed you to get the help you needed? Where were you mentally? Thanks for listening... Rachel Dawn,

I’m not even sure if you still read and respond to this section. I just stumbled upon the movie Wonderland(it’s in my roommates collection). After watching it I decided to indulge the darker side of my curiosity by researching John Holmes, and I ended up discovering this site. You being a woman and once involved in drugs(as I am a woman but currently involved in drugs), I decided to do some research on you. I want to say that I do admire you and the incredible changes you made in your life. I feel like in order to get out of that kind of lifestyle, you have to at some point be able to look at yourself OUTSIDE yourself and see something better. Is that how you were able to get out? I’m not a huge user of cocaine. Once, maybe two times every two weeks(that’s my time frame). I can’t go beyond two weeks. So I don’t use everyday or even every other day. It’s not the usage that scares me at this point, but my DESIRE. My question to you is this: What happened or what did you say to yourself, or what were you able to see/feel/wonder that allowed you to get the help you needed? Where were you mentally?

Thanks for listening…

Rachel

]]> By: donna http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-1283 donna Wed, 08 Nov 2006 19:54:18 +0000 /?p=20#comment-1283 Dawn I recently found your website and read about your experiences. I am in amazement that you lived thru such things and are alive to help other. Have you ever wonder or thought , that even thou things where terribly bad, why you stayed alive thru all of it and not contracted aids? I believe that God kept you and helped you get to the place that you needed to be to get the help you needed. I am so very happy for you. God bless and continue to keep you Dawn
I recently found your website and read about your experiences. I am in amazement that you lived thru such things and are alive to help other. Have you ever wonder or thought , that even thou things where terribly bad, why you stayed alive thru all of it and not contracted aids? I believe that God kept you and helped you get to the place that you needed to be to get the help you needed. I am so very happy for you. God bless and continue to keep you

]]> By: Marie Trevino http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-954 Marie Trevino Thu, 19 Jan 2006 00:44:36 +0000 /?p=20#comment-954 I am very PROUD of all of you!!! Keep up the good work!!! I have been there and done it myself and I know it is a log hard road but so, so worth it. Hang in there and stay strong. Marie I am very PROUD of all of you!!! Keep up the good work!!! I have been there and done it myself and I know it is a log hard road but so, so worth it. Hang in there and stay strong.

Marie

]]> By: printess http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-953 printess Wed, 18 Jan 2006 18:44:34 +0000 /?p=20#comment-953 you are definitely right about methadone being worse than the oxycontin, i actually started to cut myself down from the methadone before i went cold turkey. i would actually take from 20 to 30 milligrams every other day then i got to where i would go 3 or 4 days without even taking a dose and it really never bothered me until about the 5th day and i started getting chills, my insides were shaking, my back, head, basically every part of my body hurt. i guess where i started weening myself off about 6 or 7 months ago i thought i could quit and it would not bother me but i was wrong. i am over the worse part now and i never want to see that stuff again. i hope nobody else ever has to go through what i went through. my family is very proud of me and that means more to me than anything in the world. i would not suggest that anyone tries to come off methadone cold turkey. thank you very much and i will leave you my email address in case you or anyone else have any questions (fleabegone@yahoo.com) i know it is a funny email address. you are definitely right about methadone being worse than the oxycontin, i actually started to cut myself down from the methadone before i went cold turkey. i would actually take from 20 to 30 milligrams every other day then i got to where i would go 3 or 4 days without even taking a dose and it really never bothered me until about the 5th day and i started getting chills, my insides were shaking, my back, head, basically every part of my body hurt. i guess where i started weening myself off about 6 or 7 months ago i thought i could quit and it would not bother me but i was wrong. i am over the worse part now and i never want to see that stuff again. i hope nobody else ever has to go through what i went through. my family is very proud of me and that means more to me than anything in the world. i would not suggest that anyone tries to come off methadone cold turkey. thank you very much and i will leave you my email address in case you or anyone else have any questions (fleabegone@yahoo.com) i know it is a funny email address.

]]> By: Christi Letourneau http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-952 Christi Letourneau Wed, 18 Jan 2006 16:08:43 +0000 /?p=20#comment-952 Regarding Oxy-contin, 2 yrs ago I had an accident, and was put on Oxy-contin, i was not awsre of the side effects, not alone, the power of this drug, I also was very upset at the Dr. who prescribed it, as I was not fully informed, and that happens often to many, many Dr.'s do not take a look at the longrun of people on this drug.. to get off it , I was also put on Methadone.. I still am on Methadone, though it is a very low dose, I have managed to come down by 10 cc's/ or Mgs'..I am struggling with being on 7..I really can't believe how hard is to come off this stuff, I am being monitered, and doing it gradually, and it's still so difficult, it is harder than the Oxy-contin..I had broke 4 vertabreas..fractured, and the pain was unbearable, in hindsight, I think I would have just dealt with the pain, mind you, I had trouble walking it hurt so bad..that drug should be banned, they have other meds for pain, this one holds onto you like nothing else, the pain got worse, actually, and they said, it was an effect of the drug, called an opiate induced pain, I had never heard of that, but I was seeing a pain specialist, so that is another aspect of the drug which to me is just a catch 22..I am not a doctor, but I do not suggest you or anyone try & go off it by yourself, cold turkey, you can very sick, and the possibilities of having convulsions are quite possible....in todays world , for medical puposes, I don't believe that anyone has to go cold turkey, there are other ways to help coming off most drugs... of course it's anyone's choice, but it is just wretched to do it by oneself., and a little dangerous. I would like to leave my email addy if anyone should like to write... 4crl@videotron.ca Regarding Oxy-contin, 2 yrs ago I had an accident, and was put on Oxy-contin, i was not awsre of the side effects, not alone, the power of this drug, I also was very upset at the Dr. who prescribed it, as I was not fully informed, and that happens often to many, many Dr.’s do not take a look at the longrun of people on this drug.. to get off it , I was also put on Methadone.. I still am on Methadone, though it is a very low dose, I have managed to come down by 10 cc’s/ or Mgs’..I am struggling with being on 7..I really can’t believe how hard is to come off this stuff, I am being monitered, and doing it gradually, and it’s still so difficult, it is harder than the Oxy-contin..I had broke 4 vertabreas..fractured, and the pain was unbearable, in hindsight, I think I would have just dealt with the pain, mind you, I had trouble walking it hurt so bad..that drug should be banned, they have other meds for pain, this one holds onto you like nothing else, the pain got worse, actually, and they said, it was an effect of the drug, called an opiate induced pain, I had never heard of that, but I was seeing a pain specialist, so that is another aspect of the drug which to me is just a catch 22..I am not a doctor, but I do not suggest you or anyone try & go off it by yourself, cold turkey, you can very sick, and the possibilities of having convulsions are quite possible….in todays world , for medical puposes, I don’t believe that anyone has to go cold turkey, there are other ways to help coming off most drugs… of course it’s anyone’s choice, but it is just wretched to do it by oneself., and a little dangerous. I would like to leave my email addy if anyone should like to write… 4crl@videotron.ca

]]> By: printess http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-950 printess Tue, 17 Jan 2006 22:58:34 +0000 /?p=20#comment-950 just so everybody knows i never used a needle in my life i am really scared of a needle. just so everybody knows i never used a needle in my life i am really scared of a needle.

]]> By: printess http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2004/10/17/lets-talk-about-drugs/comment-page-1/#comment-949 printess Tue, 17 Jan 2006 22:56:01 +0000 /?p=20#comment-949 oxycontin is a very addictive drug i should know i was addicted and it is not an easy drug to come off of. i still have my struggles but i just take it one day at a time. i started going to a methodone clinic to come off oxycontin and now i have been off the methodone for almost three weeks now and this is the hardest thing in the world to get out of your system i think the methodone is harder than the oxycontin especially when you decide to quit cold turkey like me. that is a very dangerous thing to do, i just don't want to have to depend on any chemical to get out of the bed anymore. oxycontin is a very addictive drug i should know i was addicted and it is not an easy drug to come off of. i still have my struggles but i just take it one day at a time. i started going to a methodone clinic to come off oxycontin and now i have been off the methodone for almost three weeks now and this is the hardest thing in the world to get out of your system i think the methodone is harder than the oxycontin especially when you decide to quit cold turkey like me. that is a very dangerous thing to do, i just don’t want to have to depend on any chemical to get out of the bed anymore.

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