Personal Autographs!
Hello everyone. Just a quick note to let you know that Val Kilmer is signing the Wonderland Art for the same price up until this Friday. I just found out that this has been going on since last week. Sorry I didn’t let you know sooner. Hope this is of some interest to you.
Also, thanks for the encouraging comments. I am truly struggling right now and apologize for not posting more. And all of you that are sharing your stories, thank you. I hope you find some solace here.
Be well,
Dawn
September 20th, 2005 at 6:43 pm
I just wanted to let you how much I admire you……….
September 21st, 2005 at 5:41 pm
I really am inspired by you. Truly.
I am also very sorry to hear that you are struggling right now. I may not have experienced anywhere near what you have experienced, but I have known a lot of suffering in my life and still do currently, so I can relate. I just hope that it passes quickly for you, whatever you’re going through, because you certainly only deserve happy days for the rest of your life.
I was so overjoyed to hear that you got married, had a daughter and were able to move on with your life after everything that happened with John.
Feel better soon,
Megan
September 22nd, 2005 at 4:29 pm
Dawn,
I am amazed by your courage and ability to go forward after all you have been through. Your story is very powerful and you are an inspiration to women everywhere. Having been through what you have, you have accomplished so much and I’m so glad that you finally have some peace and stability in your life. You absolutely deserve it. Don’t let other people get you down. Take care and God bless, Shannon
September 24th, 2005 at 12:55 pm
Dawn,
Best wishes with your struggles. We all go thru the low times every now and then. What defines us is not what happens to us as much as how we deal with it.
Hang in there… deal with things as you best know how… and be there for your daughter. You will prevail!
Movie Fan
September 25th, 2005 at 9:38 pm
Hi Dawn,
What’s the update with the book.When should we expect it,fall next year still.I know it will be a very interesting book so i will wait as long as i have too,but i like knowing approximatly.I wish i could read it now,the emotions in the book will help so many i know this,have been there.it’s so ,i don’t know the word i’m looking for,you have know idea how much this will help.I’m so glad i’ve found you , you’ve helped so much so far,and i know if people in the same place as me hear from you more will be reaching for help.People like us need someone thats been there to understand theres a way out.i hope that you know all that you’ve done is more then the people in our lives have or that we’ve let them,you’ve come out to say something and i think thats what we need, someone to say i’ve been there i know,and it’s okay.you’ve come a long way be glad.
serena
October 2nd, 2005 at 11:58 pm
wow, just saw the movie. Unbelievable. Can’t wait for the book. I know what is is like dealing with publishers. Hang in there.
October 4th, 2005 at 10:04 am
Dawn,
Hi first off I want to say that I really admire you. And I have seen the movie like a 1,000 times everyone was great in the movie. I know it must have been hard for you to relive all the bad times you went through with John to make the movie and I am sure it took a lot of courage to do so, you are a very brave woman. I really cant wait for the book to come out I plan on buying it the day it comes out. But I do have one question that came to my mind while watching Wonderland one night O.K. If Eddie Nash really did beat John up after Eddie found out that John knew who robbed him, then why in the movie was there not a scratch on John when he came back to you in the hotel room? Did Eddie Nash really beat him up or not? Sorry to have brought this up but it is just something that has been on my mind & I have been trying to figure out. But I wish you all the luck in the world and I will continue to check your website for updates especially about the book I am dying to read it.
Sincerely,
Jenny
October 5th, 2005 at 9:19 pm
Hello it’s me again I just wanted to let you know that I really admire your courage in the way you got away from John. I just wish more young women could have the courage and the will power to get out of abusive situations. I really hope to hear from you soon, I will keep checking out your website because it is very interesting. Bye for now! Thank-you!
October 8th, 2005 at 6:22 pm
hope you are okay?I haven’t seen you be away from the website so long. What ever it is you’ll find your way just have to remember your past, and you’ll find the right path.Yuo’re a strong person even if sometimes you don’t think so.I’ve learned from all the hell i’ve been thru and also made for myself, that we all can find a way we just need to be stronger then everyone around us at least for the moment and then it seems to find it’s way.you can do it just remember you helped me,and thats a blessing in disguise. serena
October 12th, 2005 at 2:49 pm
HELLO DAWN!
I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I FINALLY FOUND A VIDEO STORE HERE THAT COULD ORDER ME A COPY OF WONDERLAND, AND I SHOULD BE RECEIVING IT ANY DAY NOW. YIPPIE!!!!! I REALLY CAN’T WAIT UNTIL I GET IT, BECAUSE I WAS TELLING MY COUSIN ABOUT THE MOVIE AND ABOUT YOU. SHE IS REALLY WANTING TO WATCH THE MOVIE. I WILL WRITE BACK AND LET YOU KNOW WHAT SHE THINKS, I KNOW THAT SHE WILL LOVE IT AS MUCH AS I DO.
I HAVE ONE QUESTION, IS JOSH LUCKAS AS GOOD LOOKING IN PERSON AS HE IS ON TELEVISION? I JUST THOUGHT HE WAS ADORABLE IN SWEET HOME ALABAMA. I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON, BYE FOR NOW!
THANK-YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR STORIES!
October 14th, 2005 at 11:00 pm
I just wanted to commend all the woman and men out there for surviving, and keeping faith in themselves. I know for myself, sometimes I am sick of what feels like a constant uphill battle with no hope. I enjoy moments of happiness where I wish I could put my genuine smiles in a bag and seal it as my fate forever….I reach a peek where I think I am finally in control of all my shadows of the past that follow me. It’s like they finally dished out enough torment for me and leave me be so I can walk among the “untainted” folk and nobody will notice my black cloud of heartache that follows me. Then so suddenly, all it takes is a spark that ignites my flame of despair and I am back in the too familiar fire and suffocating on the smoke, I can’t see the light. It is more than tough to put myself back together and brush off the debris. I remind myself that this life is mine to do as I wish and I might as well enjoy what I have left of it. I try to remember that with this life is in my hands, I create my own reality now, I don’t have to relive anything that caused me pain out of some kind of habitual self torture just because I know it so well. I admit it is tempting to give in to the fear and just hide in the shadows where I feel safe and sadly comfortable. But as time goes by I become more aware of the inner strength I have built for myself, and I am filled with self pride for sticking with this journey that I have been assigned to. It is a new side to me all too appealing to ignore, with many more rewards, rather than the self pity road to nowhere. I am pleased to say that the happy times seem to visit me more often than ever, and I take each moment as a blessing. The effort is well worth the struggle, and I believe the spirit never dies and is always waiting to be called upon to shine in your full glory. Peace and love.
October 16th, 2005 at 7:23 am
Dawn,
Has been quite some time since you’ve posted. I hope that things are looking up by now. Hang in there…..
October 17th, 2005 at 6:03 am
Dawn, I hope everything is going okay for you. And to Melissa who posted here, your words are very encouraging and I wish you the best of luck. We all go through things every day that challenge our well-being and we just have to remember to take it one day at a time. I have been going through serious financial problems and on top of that, my father passed away a couple of months ago. Some days I just felt like I couldn’t continue and just want to run away from everyone and everything. I just keep telling myself that things will get better, and that’s what keeps me moving. Take care.
October 18th, 2005 at 6:41 am
Melissa, I know what you are saying, truly it is from your heart, I too can understand what your feeling and going through, it is a battle with many demons, trying to bring us down. Gawd… so many of us, who lived a life, and I will use the example of “Wonderland” my life was much like that in the early to mid 80’s. It stopped when I met my husband to be. he last few yrs, all has flooded back, and I actually started missing those wild, crazy, dangerous& & bizzare lifestyle.I have talked to many people from this site, and all my best friends that I have from my life now, and even friends that I went to high school with, I am blessed with having so many friends.But it seems that women , who are 40, some 35, are going through similar feelings, perhaps it is our age, wanting that youth, feedom, and the easy way to hisd from life’s hard reality, and it is different for everyone, I really went through , almost hitting rock bottom in my brain, unable to breathe, when I had so much, husband , my beautiful kids, my home, but it still was not enough, I wanted to run away, I needed a buffer between myself and life, the buffer was H. I has a chance to use, I turned it down, for many reasons, the biggest one was that I got scared, all the warmth, starting from your toes and up , all over, feeling no pain, that is the buffer, the haze, I got scared because of my children, of an OD, that does not mean that I will beat these feelings, I still have the demons that chase me in my sleep, and are there when I wake, it is literally one day at a time, I used to have what I call screaming in my head, it’s gone now, but once in while it creeps in, I don’t know if you understand what I mean when I talk about the screaming in my head, it is hard to describe.I have had alot of people from this site that have really helped me, just by their words, and the caring that comes from that,even when we have it all, it still is shity battle.There is one documentary that I urge everyone to see, it is called “The Self Destruction Of Gia” it is about the model Gia Carrangi, in the early 80’s, she was coined the 1st “Supermodel”, there are many people, some that are well known, famous, and some not. It is a heavy reality check for anyone who is /has used drugs, problems with just simply living, it shows to the audience that just because you have it all, you can go down, she died of aids after she finally got clean, it is tragic, and does not glamourize the life a model, there is a women who talks about H and other drugs, her name is Zoe Lund, she too was a junkie, writer, wrote THe Bad Lieutenant, with Harvey Keital ( yes, I know I spelled his name wrong) anyways, I am friends with her ex husband, we email each other, she was another women, also an actor, who lived a life that spiralled down, she was so pretty and smart, she died in 1997, I think. My point is even the ones that run around with the famous feel the same way we do, have all the same feelings, I have talked too long…………… I have an online friend, and we think that a wbsite for women of 40, or women going through alot of crap, wanting to stay clean, but are fighting it , drugs, kids, mid-life , alcohol, all those topics for women to talk to, and get help, online, anywasy , it’s a thought, perhaps one day, we’ll do it. Christi
October 20th, 2005 at 7:05 am
Dear Dawn
What an amazing woman - what a miracle you are. I watched Wonderland last night for the first time and was compelled to go straight to the internet and find out more about you. The bit at the end of the film that tells the viewer about your survival and escape from the bittersweet nightmare that was your life with John filled my heart with such admiration and hope. I am a woman in recovery and sometimes it is hard, but seeing a story such as yours reminds me that miracles happen - and that bad days are bearable and part of life. I will continue to view this site and trudge the road to happy destiny along side women like yourself.
Kind regards,
Laura Selbekk
London
October 22nd, 2005 at 1:01 pm
HELLO DAWN,
I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I FINALLY RECEIVED MY COPY OF WONDERLAND, ALRIGHT!!!! THIS IS MY FAVORITE MOVIE AND I CAN WATCH IT OVER AND OVER. I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON. BEST WISHES FROM WEST VIRGINIA.
STAY STRONG
PRINTESS!
November 28th, 2005 at 2:38 pm
Hey Dawn,
Im french, so excuse my bad english…
I ve heard a lot about your story, and there is still something i don t get….I can’t hate that John u been with. And the more i read books, papers, about your story, the more i see that a lot of people hates him…
I am maybe wrong, but all i feel when i think about what u’ve been through, is that u were two young children,, lost..
I saw u have a daughter, a husband…i hope they give you love and pride, and love again…lol
I ll read your book for sure. Take (always) care
Rudy..
June 4th, 2006 at 8:14 am
I hope you finish the book soon. I’ll read it, and so will many, many other people, and it may help a lot of them, who knows? Best Wishes