Comments on: Personal Autographs! http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/ babblings! Fri, 21 Nov 2008 04:31:40 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.6.3 By: Carol http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-1112 Carol Sun, 04 Jun 2006 15:14:34 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-1112 I hope you finish the book soon. I'll read it, and so will many, many other people, and it may help a lot of them, who knows? Best Wishes I hope you finish the book soon. I’ll read it, and so will many, many other people, and it may help a lot of them, who knows? Best Wishes

]]> By: Rudy http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-867 Rudy Mon, 28 Nov 2005 21:38:31 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-867 Hey Dawn, Im french, so excuse my bad english... I ve heard a lot about your story, and there is still something i don t get....I can't hate that John u been with. And the more i read books, papers, about your story, the more i see that a lot of people hates him... I am maybe wrong, but all i feel when i think about what u've been through, is that u were two young children,, lost.. I saw u have a daughter, a husband...i hope they give you love and pride, and love again...lol I ll read your book for sure. Take (always) care Rudy.. Hey Dawn,

Im french, so excuse my bad english…
I ve heard a lot about your story, and there is still something i don t get….I can’t hate that John u been with. And the more i read books, papers, about your story, the more i see that a lot of people hates him…
I am maybe wrong, but all i feel when i think about what u’ve been through, is that u were two young children,, lost..
I saw u have a daughter, a husband…i hope they give you love and pride, and love again…lol

I ll read your book for sure. Take (always) care

Rudy..

]]> By: PRINTESS http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-825 PRINTESS Sat, 22 Oct 2005 20:01:31 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-825 HELLO DAWN, I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I FINALLY RECEIVED MY COPY OF WONDERLAND, ALRIGHT!!!! THIS IS MY FAVORITE MOVIE AND I CAN WATCH IT OVER AND OVER. I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON. BEST WISHES FROM WEST VIRGINIA. STAY STRONG PRINTESS! HELLO DAWN,
I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I FINALLY RECEIVED MY COPY OF WONDERLAND, ALRIGHT! THIS IS MY FAVORITE MOVIE AND I CAN WATCH IT OVER AND OVER. I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON. BEST WISHES FROM WEST VIRGINIA.
STAY STRONG
PRINTESS!

]]> By: Laura Selbekk http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-823 Laura Selbekk Thu, 20 Oct 2005 14:05:05 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-823 Dear Dawn What an amazing woman - what a miracle you are. I watched Wonderland last night for the first time and was compelled to go straight to the internet and find out more about you. The bit at the end of the film that tells the viewer about your survival and escape from the bittersweet nightmare that was your life with John filled my heart with such admiration and hope. I am a woman in recovery and sometimes it is hard, but seeing a story such as yours reminds me that miracles happen - and that bad days are bearable and part of life. I will continue to view this site and trudge the road to happy destiny along side women like yourself. Kind regards, Laura Selbekk London Dear Dawn

What an amazing woman – what a miracle you are. I watched Wonderland last night for the first time and was compelled to go straight to the internet and find out more about you. The bit at the end of the film that tells the viewer about your survival and escape from the bittersweet nightmare that was your life with John filled my heart with such admiration and hope. I am a woman in recovery and sometimes it is hard, but seeing a story such as yours reminds me that miracles happen – and that bad days are bearable and part of life. I will continue to view this site and trudge the road to happy destiny along side women like yourself.

Kind regards,
Laura Selbekk
London

]]> By: Christi Letourneau http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-811 Christi Letourneau Tue, 18 Oct 2005 13:41:39 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-811 Melissa, I know what you are saying, truly it is from your heart, I too can understand what your feeling and going through, it is a battle with many demons, trying to bring us down. Gawd... so many of us, who lived a life, and I will use the example of "Wonderland" my life was much like that in the early to mid 80's. It stopped when I met my husband to be. he last few yrs, all has flooded back, and I actually started missing those wild, crazy, dangerous& & bizzare lifestyle.I have talked to many people from this site, and all my best friends that I have from my life now, and even friends that I went to high school with, I am blessed with having so many friends.But it seems that women , who are 40, some 35, are going through similar feelings, perhaps it is our age, wanting that youth, feedom, and the easy way to hisd from life's hard reality, and it is different for everyone, I really went through , almost hitting rock bottom in my brain, unable to breathe, when I had so much, husband , my beautiful kids, my home, but it still was not enough, I wanted to run away, I needed a buffer between myself and life, the buffer was H. I has a chance to use, I turned it down, for many reasons, the biggest one was that I got scared, all the warmth, starting from your toes and up , all over, feeling no pain, that is the buffer, the haze, I got scared because of my children, of an OD, that does not mean that I will beat these feelings, I still have the demons that chase me in my sleep, and are there when I wake, it is literally one day at a time, I used to have what I call screaming in my head, it's gone now, but once in while it creeps in, I don't know if you understand what I mean when I talk about the screaming in my head, it is hard to describe.I have had alot of people from this site that have really helped me, just by their words, and the caring that comes from that,even when we have it all, it still is shity battle.There is one documentary that I urge everyone to see, it is called "The Self Destruction Of Gia" it is about the model Gia Carrangi, in the early 80's, she was coined the 1st "Supermodel", there are many people, some that are well known, famous, and some not. It is a heavy reality check for anyone who is /has used drugs, problems with just simply living, it shows to the audience that just because you have it all, you can go down, she died of aids after she finally got clean, it is tragic, and does not glamourize the life a model, there is a women who talks about H and other drugs, her name is Zoe Lund, she too was a junkie, writer, wrote THe Bad Lieutenant, with Harvey Keital ( yes, I know I spelled his name wrong) anyways, I am friends with her ex husband, we email each other, she was another women, also an actor, who lived a life that spiralled down, she was so pretty and smart, she died in 1997, I think. My point is even the ones that run around with the famous feel the same way we do, have all the same feelings, I have talked too long............... I have an online friend, and we think that a wbsite for women of 40, or women going through alot of crap, wanting to stay clean, but are fighting it , drugs, kids, mid-life , alcohol, all those topics for women to talk to, and get help, online, anywasy , it's a thought, perhaps one day, we'll do it. Christi Melissa, I know what you are saying, truly it is from your heart, I too can understand what your feeling and going through, it is a battle with many demons, trying to bring us down. Gawd… so many of us, who lived a life, and I will use the example of “Wonderland” my life was much like that in the early to mid 80’s. It stopped when I met my husband to be. he last few yrs, all has flooded back, and I actually started missing those wild, crazy, dangerous& & bizzare lifestyle.I have talked to many people from this site, and all my best friends that I have from my life now, and even friends that I went to high school with, I am blessed with having so many friends.But it seems that women , who are 40, some 35, are going through similar feelings, perhaps it is our age, wanting that youth, feedom, and the easy way to hisd from life’s hard reality, and it is different for everyone, I really went through , almost hitting rock bottom in my brain, unable to breathe, when I had so much, husband , my beautiful kids, my home, but it still was not enough, I wanted to run away, I needed a buffer between myself and life, the buffer was H. I has a chance to use, I turned it down, for many reasons, the biggest one was that I got scared, all the warmth, starting from your toes and up , all over, feeling no pain, that is the buffer, the haze, I got scared because of my children, of an OD, that does not mean that I will beat these feelings, I still have the demons that chase me in my sleep, and are there when I wake, it is literally one day at a time, I used to have what I call screaming in my head, it’s gone now, but once in while it creeps in, I don’t know if you understand what I mean when I talk about the screaming in my head, it is hard to describe.I have had alot of people from this site that have really helped me, just by their words, and the caring that comes from that,even when we have it all, it still is shity battle.There is one documentary that I urge everyone to see, it is called “The Self Destruction Of Gia” it is about the model Gia Carrangi, in the early 80’s, she was coined the 1st “Supermodel”, there are many people, some that are well known, famous, and some not. It is a heavy reality check for anyone who is /has used drugs, problems with just simply living, it shows to the audience that just because you have it all, you can go down, she died of aids after she finally got clean, it is tragic, and does not glamourize the life a model, there is a women who talks about H and other drugs, her name is Zoe Lund, she too was a junkie, writer, wrote THe Bad Lieutenant, with Harvey Keital ( yes, I know I spelled his name wrong) anyways, I am friends with her ex husband, we email each other, she was another women, also an actor, who lived a life that spiralled down, she was so pretty and smart, she died in 1997, I think. My point is even the ones that run around with the famous feel the same way we do, have all the same feelings, I have talked too long…............ I have an online friend, and we think that a wbsite for women of 40, or women going through alot of crap, wanting to stay clean, but are fighting it , drugs, kids, mid-life , alcohol, all those topics for women to talk to, and get help, online, anywasy , it’s a thought, perhaps one day, we’ll do it. Christi

]]> By: als http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-808 als Mon, 17 Oct 2005 13:03:30 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-808 Dawn, I hope everything is going okay for you. And to Melissa who posted here, your words are very encouraging and I wish you the best of luck. We all go through things every day that challenge our well-being and we just have to remember to take it one day at a time. I have been going through serious financial problems and on top of that, my father passed away a couple of months ago. Some days I just felt like I couldn't continue and just want to run away from everyone and everything. I just keep telling myself that things will get better, and that's what keeps me moving. Take care. Dawn, I hope everything is going okay for you. And to Melissa who posted here, your words are very encouraging and I wish you the best of luck. We all go through things every day that challenge our well-being and we just have to remember to take it one day at a time. I have been going through serious financial problems and on top of that, my father passed away a couple of months ago. Some days I just felt like I couldn’t continue and just want to run away from everyone and everything. I just keep telling myself that things will get better, and that’s what keeps me moving. Take care.

]]> By: MovieFan http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-805 MovieFan Sun, 16 Oct 2005 14:23:53 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-805 Dawn, Has been quite some time since you've posted. I hope that things are looking up by now. Hang in there..... Dawn,

Has been quite some time since you’ve posted. I hope that things are looking up by now. Hang in there…..

]]> By: Melissa http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-804 Melissa Sat, 15 Oct 2005 06:00:41 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-804 I just wanted to commend all the woman and men out there for surviving, and keeping faith in themselves. I know for myself, sometimes I am sick of what feels like a constant uphill battle with no hope. I enjoy moments of happiness where I wish I could put my genuine smiles in a bag and seal it as my fate forever....I reach a peek where I think I am finally in control of all my shadows of the past that follow me. It's like they finally dished out enough torment for me and leave me be so I can walk among the "untainted" folk and nobody will notice my black cloud of heartache that follows me. Then so suddenly, all it takes is a spark that ignites my flame of despair and I am back in the too familiar fire and suffocating on the smoke, I can't see the light. It is more than tough to put myself back together and brush off the debris. I remind myself that this life is mine to do as I wish and I might as well enjoy what I have left of it. I try to remember that with this life is in my hands, I create my own reality now, I don't have to relive anything that caused me pain out of some kind of habitual self torture just because I know it so well. I admit it is tempting to give in to the fear and just hide in the shadows where I feel safe and sadly comfortable. But as time goes by I become more aware of the inner strength I have built for myself, and I am filled with self pride for sticking with this journey that I have been assigned to. It is a new side to me all too appealing to ignore, with many more rewards, rather than the self pity road to nowhere. I am pleased to say that the happy times seem to visit me more often than ever, and I take each moment as a blessing. The effort is well worth the struggle, and I believe the spirit never dies and is always waiting to be called upon to shine in your full glory. Peace and love. I just wanted to commend all the woman and men out there for surviving, and keeping faith in themselves. I know for myself, sometimes I am sick of what feels like a constant uphill battle with no hope. I enjoy moments of happiness where I wish I could put my genuine smiles in a bag and seal it as my fate forever….I reach a peek where I think I am finally in control of all my shadows of the past that follow me. It’s like they finally dished out enough torment for me and leave me be so I can walk among the “untainted” folk and nobody will notice my black cloud of heartache that follows me. Then so suddenly, all it takes is a spark that ignites my flame of despair and I am back in the too familiar fire and suffocating on the smoke, I can’t see the light. It is more than tough to put myself back together and brush off the debris. I remind myself that this life is mine to do as I wish and I might as well enjoy what I have left of it. I try to remember that with this life is in my hands, I create my own reality now, I don’t have to relive anything that caused me pain out of some kind of habitual self torture just because I know it so well. I admit it is tempting to give in to the fear and just hide in the shadows where I feel safe and sadly comfortable. But as time goes by I become more aware of the inner strength I have built for myself, and I am filled with self pride for sticking with this journey that I have been assigned to. It is a new side to me all too appealing to ignore, with many more rewards, rather than the self pity road to nowhere. I am pleased to say that the happy times seem to visit me more often than ever, and I take each moment as a blessing. The effort is well worth the struggle, and I believe the spirit never dies and is always waiting to be called upon to shine in your full glory. Peace and love.

]]> By: printess http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-800 printess Wed, 12 Oct 2005 21:49:01 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-800 HELLO DAWN! I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I FINALLY FOUND A VIDEO STORE HERE THAT COULD ORDER ME A COPY OF WONDERLAND, AND I SHOULD BE RECEIVING IT ANY DAY NOW. YIPPIE!!!!! I REALLY CAN'T WAIT UNTIL I GET IT, BECAUSE I WAS TELLING MY COUSIN ABOUT THE MOVIE AND ABOUT YOU. SHE IS REALLY WANTING TO WATCH THE MOVIE. I WILL WRITE BACK AND LET YOU KNOW WHAT SHE THINKS, I KNOW THAT SHE WILL LOVE IT AS MUCH AS I DO. I HAVE ONE QUESTION, IS JOSH LUCKAS AS GOOD LOOKING IN PERSON AS HE IS ON TELEVISION? I JUST THOUGHT HE WAS ADORABLE IN SWEET HOME ALABAMA. I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON, BYE FOR NOW! THANK-YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR STORIES! HELLO DAWN!
I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I FINALLY FOUND A VIDEO STORE HERE THAT COULD ORDER ME A COPY OF WONDERLAND, AND I SHOULD BE RECEIVING IT ANY DAY NOW. YIPPIE!! I REALLY CAN’T WAIT UNTIL I GET IT, BECAUSE I WAS TELLING MY COUSIN ABOUT THE MOVIE AND ABOUT YOU. SHE IS REALLY WANTING TO WATCH THE MOVIE. I WILL WRITE BACK AND LET YOU KNOW WHAT SHE THINKS, I KNOW THAT SHE WILL LOVE IT AS MUCH AS I DO.
I HAVE ONE QUESTION, IS JOSH LUCKAS AS GOOD LOOKING IN PERSON AS HE IS ON TELEVISION? I JUST THOUGHT HE WAS ADORABLE IN SWEET HOME ALABAMA. I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON, BYE FOR NOW!
THANK-YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR STORIES!

]]> By: serena http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-798 serena Sun, 09 Oct 2005 01:22:46 +0000 http://www.dawn-schiller.com/2005/09/19/personal-autographs/#comment-798 hope you are okay?I haven't seen you be away from the website so long. What ever it is you'll find your way just have to remember your past, and you'll find the right path.Yuo're a strong person even if sometimes you don't think so.I've learned from all the hell i've been thru and also made for myself, that we all can find a way we just need to be stronger then everyone around us at least for the moment and then it seems to find it's way.you can do it just remember you helped me,and thats a blessing in disguise. serena hope you are okay?I haven’t seen you be away from the website so long. What ever it is you’ll find your way just have to remember your past, and you’ll find the right path.Yuo’re a strong person even if sometimes you don’t think so.I’ve learned from all the hell i’ve been thru and also made for myself, that we all can find a way we just need to be stronger then everyone around us at least for the moment and then it seems to find it’s way.you can do it just remember you helped me,and thats a blessing in disguise. serena

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