Happy Holiday Kickoff!
Hello everyone! I hope you are all enjoying a wonderful turkey day and some days off. I know it has been quite some time since I have written…I have been going through some difficult emotional times lately, as I mentioned in a previous post, as well as alot of work and deadlines and have simply been too overloaded to post. I do feel bad. October came and went without any mention from me about how it was Domestic Violence Awareness month. I did march in the parade with my daughter again this year, (she wore her fairy wings, of course) and have been keeping up with my hotline volunteer commitments. This weekend is actually my hotline commitment again, but so far the phone has been quiet. I am told by other staff that it isn’t unusual for people to try to hold things together during the holidays. I find this kind of scary, because I know that something is bound to blow after “holding things together”. Soon the eggshells….then the expolsion.
This week my daughter turned 6 years old as well. My goodness, can any one child have so many people love her? She has a sparkle that brings a smile to people’s faces, especially mine. We walked through town today, to do some of that after Thanksgiving shopping and every single shop keeper ended up in deep conversations with her about how they ran their stores. Then my daughter offered to help them either fold their clothes for display or arrange flowers for customers and sure enough, every one of them said yes and showed her the ropes of their shops. This is a fun little girl with alot of confidence. She knows that “she can”. What a great miracle to witness. My daughter, a child of an abuse victim, me, happy and full of that wonderful thing called self-esteem and confidence. This is priceless….
Happy Holidays Friends. I hope you are all well. I am still going through alot, but am better and am so grateful to you for your warm, supportive comments.
Be well and many, many blessings,
Dawn
November 28th, 2005 at 3:05 pm
Hey, me again…I am very sorry if i said i cant hate him…U are a real someone. thats all, u re just an amazing women. I wish the best to all the family…Be happy, all of u
Rudy
November 28th, 2005 at 4:08 pm
Hello Dawn,
Glad to see your new post, it sounds like you have been really busy. I am glad you and your daughter had a nice holiday, theirs nothing like spending the holidays with family and friends. I hope to hear from you again really soon.
Best wishes,
Printess
November 28th, 2005 at 9:55 pm
Hi Dawn,
I’m glad you and your fam. are doing good. It warmed my heart to hear about your daughter wearing her fairy wings in the parade. My girl is 4 yrs. old, w/ a cherub smile. Isn’t amazing how their smile can make you forget about anything and fill you with the utmost joy?!!! That is what I live for!! Keep pushing Babe, you are doing phenomenal!!
Best Wishes,
Nicole D’Amico
November 30th, 2005 at 6:08 pm
Hi Dawn,
I just wanted to know how much longer do you think it will be before your book will be ready? I can’t wait to read it. I know it will be a real page turner.
Good Luck,
Printess
December 2nd, 2005 at 12:27 pm
HI DAWN I REALLY LIKED THE MOVIE IT WAS INTENSE YOU DIDNT KNOW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN NEXT. I AM WAITING FOR YOUR BOOK CANT WE READ IT SOON??
December 5th, 2005 at 8:31 pm
Hello everyone, I just wanted to say that I just made one of the gutsiest moves of my life. I quit my job that I hated that never really suited me, and found myself compromising my happiness to suite everyone else’s ideals in my life. I decided to go back to school and follow my dream of becoming a massage therapist. For me, life has always been a struggle with not much support around me, with next to no confidence in myself, this took all the guts I could scrounge up. I am still scared, but learned a valuable lesson to always trust yourself, especially when others around you disagree, it is even more important to trust yourself fully. I finally feel in control of me and empowered by myself, instead of being so lost, or going with the flow because it’s so comfortable. Although I pissed a few people off in the process, took a big pay cut, I have a vitality in my heart that comes with the knowing that I made the right decision. Last year my life was full of blurry weekends and my body of chemicals, I wasn’t quite addicted but I have to say the air is definitely clearer this year and it’s paying off. It’s amazing what you have inside you when you free yourself from false happiness and let your natural emotions take over. You create your own reality for life, instead of relying on something els to do it for you that only lasts a little while and deserts you the next day only to leave you drained and dead inside.
December 6th, 2005 at 9:07 am
Melissa,
Congratulations on your tremendous courage to change your life for the better!! I wish you all the best. Keep going and believe in yourself no matter how many people may seem disappointed, if they care about whats best for you they will be supportive once they see your happiness in life. Change is scary, I am going thru the same dilemma’s in life also. Your story gives me encouragement. Thanks for sharing and best of luck, Melissa!!
Nicole
December 15th, 2005 at 1:40 pm
Dear Melissa -
After reading your posting I felt encouraged to start my life’s change as well. I’m so miserable. I recently gave up the heavier drugs and gained a lot of weight. Now it seems as if that is holding me back as well as my lack of self worth.
I have printed your words so that when I’m feeling down or thinking death is better than this life I’m currently living I can find the hope I so desperately need.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Mischa
December 16th, 2005 at 11:50 pm
Mischa, I want to tell you that this life truly is a gift. I am still a young person, but the pain I have felt has taken me to some dark and lonely places that are so indescribable. I have in the past, as you, considered leaving this world to free myself from my pain, sick of it being so damn hard. But I didn’t. Thank the Lord, because we are meant to be here to enjoy, not take our lives. Don’t be so hard on yourself, you are already succeeding by wanting to change. The road to internal happiness is tough, something so beautiful isn’t easy coming out of hardship. It takes a lot of discipline, but mostly self love to rise above. Teach yourself to be more positive and concentrate on the good you have to offer, I know this is extra hard coming off drugs, so give yourself the patience you need. Once you have a taste of the happiness you deserve, nothing can stop you. I have learned that death is not the road to freedom, it is through controlling ourselves that we find release, we can free ourselves from the bondage of misery that consumes us and leaves our souls tortured. Find faith in yourself, you alone have the drive and the power to change your world.
You are in my prayers,
Love from, Melissa.
December 19th, 2005 at 8:31 am
Melissa -
Thank you so very much for your kind words. You write really well and it seems to come from experience.
Your words meant so much to me this morning I just wanted to say thank you especially during this holiday season. This time of year is so hard on many of us and I really appreciate the time and effort.
Mischa
February 8th, 2006 at 10:23 pm
Mischa -
I hope life is treating you well…better than well.
It’s been more than 20 years since I met you, but
I’ll always remember you as one of the most beautiful
girls who ever kissed me (if you don’t remember me, then I’ll
leave well enough alone). I just thought you might be the same Mischa I knew in ‘84-’85 Austin. Even if you’re not…..live, and find happiness.
Phillip
February 9th, 2006 at 7:03 am
Phillip -
Oh my God! If you are Phillip Copeland than yes, it is me! I am really at a loss for words right now. I can be reached on yahoo. My screen name is pinupcutie1970.
Wow! I really am just really floored at just how small the world really is! Hopefully we can chat via email sometime soon. Are you still in Texas?
Well Phillip I will stop here as I’m sure most people on this blog don’t want to hear the ramblings of 2 people who once really dug each other! I too hope all is well with you.
Mischa
February 9th, 2006 at 7:06 am
Phillip -
P.S. - I can also be found on match.com smae screen name! I hope they post this so you can see me now and get in touch!
Have a nice day!
Mischa
February 12th, 2006 at 3:38 pm
Thanks, and best wishes to everyone here.
Phillip
July 27th, 2006 at 11:54 am
Dawn: I just wanted to say hello and wish you the best. I still cannot believe some of what you went thru. Someone recently told me their daughter was a victim of violence by her boyfirend. This child is only 17 and she was abused severely. The sad thing is she still luvs the guy, which is typical for abused woment. I referred her family to your web site and hope they browse and learn that they did not do anything wrong, that sometimes there are bad people out there. Thank again Dawn.